As October marks the start of our difficult months we’ve had a changing of the guards so to speak.  I am Toni, Antoinette to some but most just call me Toni. I’m not the Big, Host person, Birth person or what ever you choose to call it. I just usually stand in for the Big when she can’t handle out for a while.  Writing is one of the ways that helps a lot of us heal which is why we have chosen to still do the blog during this time. Any posts done by us insiders for now on will use the tonietal author, just to make things easier when She is back out.  OK now that the “business” end is taken care off we can relax I hope and have some fun 😛